New York was an opportunity to network and gather more material for my portfolio. Essentially the same agenda/goal for California and Arizona last year. And due to a few failed expectations, I feel as though I've returned home empty handed. But then again, maybe not.. and I say that because a part of me believes the culture shock from New York - 'the city that never sleeps' - was more than enough.
The shock bestowed upon me many lessons, one of them reinforcing the thought, 'I ain't shit', a mere ant, wandering a tiny spec of the earth. And it didn't really hit me until I was within the center of Time Square. At that moment I was staring into my phone's selfie camera, spinning, as I thought to myself - 'Here I am, in a city where no one knows my name. Completely invisible'. A humbling experience within itself. An experience that relieved me of the anxieties from living within a small college town, so small the chances of seeing the same person three times within one day is likely.
With that being said, New York doesn't 'care'. It's a huge city that's overwhelmingly crowded and ironically, I found comfort within that. The feeling of being a statistic forced me to think on myself, who I was as a person and what I wanted out of life. It fueled the fire known as my passion, inspiring me to work harder, be steadfast towards achieving my goals, and develop my sense of worth - my place within this world.
Thank you, Taylor of DNA Models for giving me the opportunity of shooting with you guys, although our schedules were unable to match. Maybe next time.